F*ck Boys
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Fuck Boys
When I think about all the men who did me wrong, I think to myself did i ever belong.
Did I ever belong in their arms, on their lips or in their bed.
Was all those feelings all in my head.
I assume so because when I look back I wasn’t mentally stable.
Because my depression and anxiety made disable.
I didn’t know right from wrong, I was just trying to fill the void.
But that’s impossible when your messing with little boys.
And some of these boys knew I wasn’t all there in my head.
I even shared with some of them that I wanted to be dead.
But they never cared or wanted to help me.
They didn’t care that they would contribute to my anxiety.
So each one took advantage of me in one way or another.
Emotionally, physically, and intellectually.
This is what happens when you’re ill, mentally.
Everyone has tried to get the best of me.
But I’m better now and true love has set me free. But the scars are still here to always remind me.
People will take from you what you will never get back.
But people can’t break you.
And once you’re stronger, they can no longer attack.
Was all those feelings all in my head.
I assume so because when I look back I wasn’t mentally stable.
Because my depression and anxiety made disable.
I didn’t know right from wrong, I was just trying to fill the void.
But that’s impossible when your messing with little boys.
And some of these boys knew I wasn’t all there in my head.
I even shared with some of them that I wanted to be dead.
But they never cared or wanted to help me.
They didn’t care that they would contribute to my anxiety.
So each one took advantage of me in one way or another.
Emotionally, physically, and intellectually.
This is what happens when you’re ill, mentally.
Everyone has tried to get the best of me.
But I’m better now and true love has set me free. But the scars are still here to always remind me.
People will take from you what you will never get back.
But people can’t break you.
And once you’re stronger, they can no longer attack.
*The opinions and ideas expressed are solely those of the author, and do not reflect the opinions of The Bronx Brand*
Ashley Effrece is from the Kingsbridge section of the Bronx and grew up in the Throggs Neck projects. She loves the Bronx and considers it a damsel in distress. Her mission is to defend the Bronx, and help promote it’s culture, truth and light. She loves that the Bronx is raw, beautiful, gritty, resilient and so are the people. Bronxites are leaders, fighters, and winners. “We are the strongest New Yorkers I know.”
